days in non-break march

30/1/2010

a puffing hunting day.^since last night turns agile with the idea of a new udisk, replacing the broken one i bought weeks ago. went to computer market at once after got up. bought baby a new mousepad he asked, and some food he likes. then all day with preparing clean os on 3 computers, including 2 notebook and a desktop. tried twice to make a bootable udisk, migrating data. lunch at baby's mom's home. later went to shower in public bathroom near ema's house. dined with pies i bought there. then demonstrated ema the cozy of google products. returned dorm near 9pm. its merely a fruitful day.

29/1/2010

a busy day spoiled by damned win7's incompatible.^arranged agenda in last night. in office launched soon after arrival to add static pages to family blogger's blogs which just support the feature. since 9am to 2pm, narrowly gave it a stop. main reason for the lagging, one is China surveillance's blocking let time wasted in Internet response, another is the damned incompatible of win 7 disabled my most available html editor&let static pages' relayouting a pains of work. the traffic worsen in late afternoon, so i left around 4pm&dined with beef pies as usual. when i ready to return dorm, God lets me lingered near the cross road my girl zhou can appear. i listened the Holy, paid 2 eyes on 2 roads my girl can adopt to go home from QRRS HQ. the main road of QRRS again cluelessly, likely my girl really ditch the way. but a tall girl in white short coat appeared when i noticed on the other side of the cross road, which near my girl's home. she previously accompanyed by a male, then she went alone to a Internet cafe named "new millennium", where i haunted a lot back to 2006 when i blog online for my search for her after we met first time and soon she left QRRS at the end of practise term, before i retreated to hometown&re-treated i asylum for burning love and craving for my beloved. so many days passed since she last time let me closer to her in QRRS rush time crowd, i almost forgot her face, and in these days i saw so many female that can mistaken me, but i never so satisfied like by my girl zhou in last direct impression when she was packed by some male QRRSer into a car in rush time, likely dined out, nor by my girl zhou this time in the warm dusk when she departed the male aside her&join cafe alone, she is so bright with her perfect figure and taste of fashion.

28/1/2010

a day sees progress.^today finally got my family email box routinely checked&backup accounts. read in the morning. refined family google panoramio's accounts, including vanity urls. help colleague fix shared printer. its originally bright, but dirts needs kill, so most of time in the afternoon its gloomy. i also put on coat in office for the chill of tomb from gays in office. sorted portable till near 6pm then left office&dined out with beef pies, and mutton soup. - daily tweet on Jan 28,2010

27/1/2010

a normal busy day.^got up around 7am, went to office near 8am. posted tweet, then read&download most of the day. also check family mail boxes routinely. finished task overdue, ie. added my passed dad's only video in his last year on the earth, shot by my kid brother when he visited our hometown while in vacation from his Guangdong's drifting employee's life, into the link of his photo on sites i setup in memorising him. later tried to logon my qq via its client on a female colleague's pc, for web qq refused my logon for several days. then tried pidgin, an open source instant messenger which said support qq but failed me to access my qq, the monoply Chinese social im, likes all Chinese dotcoms, closely dogged its property by fensed itself from any open connects, and steal user base and data secretly at will. sorted portable&backup some stuff newly got to dvd, finished it after 6pm. the facing dog closely espionaged, stayed there just several minutes ahead me left, while the monitor left about half of an hour after work over. treated myself with beef pies and soup. missing my girl, who didn't apppear in rush crowd of QRRSers at noon again, very much.

insane&ill peers gawked into their problems upon me.

insane&ill peers gawked into their problems upon me.^dreamed lots of alumni of middle school&campus. also dreamed worked with some QRRS colleagues. after woke up, dog's curse let me anxious awhile about my potent. since last night when i dined in the restaurant the evil against me on the topic: a couple whose family life turned a nightmare there asked another male friend to try to dissolve their family's coldness of dying hearts. a grey man once lived in QRRS dorm but a blue collar worker there tried to chat to me&boast old time firendship he had with the dog in the neighbor office of mine. and this morning just when i left the dorm to office, the only hometown folk of Hubei in QRRS, also a grey man, met me and tried to talk with me about hometown journey. they all likely had problem with their potent, and poisoning my life with their spying eyes which is blind in front of the Holy. got up at 7:17am and soon arrived office. posted tweets first, then hunt for resource to download. tried to update my google latitude but China surveillance heavily hampered the operation. also tried a new extension of google browser, chrome's, which blocked heavily by the surveillance. sorted portable after narrowly done it. my girl zhou again refused to walk alone the main road which passes my office in QRRS. the monitor, a dog, even God let me treat him a bit different from the facing evil for he also a graduate, bullied me by persuading me not to spit to the corridor, after i shown self-disciplined after the fury of the gay on facing desk and avoided to spit indoor. they all dogs whose common behavior is bully the silent. i retreated from office earlier, just after 2pm, for the cold of gays, ie. the deads, in office let me unconfortable. on the way check telcom's office, attempting to increase my cellphone wap's bonus pack, after my previous bundle, 10mb/month at 1rmb's cost turns insufficient after these nights i surfed via wap on bed. but unfortunately my cellphone's password missing, and i was suggested to go to the telcom's HQ in central town to handle password changing process. in dorm, enjoyed food&white wine bought last night. dinner was unpleasant, the evil owner of the canteen pretending talking to her contacts and sold me smelly belly meat without my consent. so i dined again in the restaurant near the cross road. leaving the restaurant, i doubting if i should roam alone the main road of QRRS, now that it was rush time of work over. i really eager to see my girl who hidden from me for so many days, but God let me retreat to dorm. surfed in dorm on cell. roamed outside again after 6:30pm, bought some pickles on way in the grocer shop yesterday haunted. baby buzzed in so we had a good time in air, that's the predecided.

my girl zhou, no matter how far u hidden from my searching sight, u r mine. God knows it, and u know it. let me have u, let me pick u. u will see the miracle exactly in my arms. every single cell in my blood, in my flesh, calling for u for family life, for pure joice i crying for u for so many years! u knew, Heaven knows. u had to be my life long wife, my 3rd wife, in my kingdom, in my Royal of China. that's out of debate.

full work load of monday. evil troubled me with men's problem.

26/1/2010

dreamed lots of alumni of middle school&campus. also dreamed worked with some QRRS colleagues. after woke up, dog's curse let me anxious awhile about my potent. since last night when i dined in the restaurant the evil against me on the topic: a couple whose family life turned a nightmare there asked another male friend to try to dissolve their family's coldness. a grey man once lived in QRRS dorm but a worker there tried to chat to me. and this morning when i left the dorm to office, the only hometown folk of Hubei, also a grey man, met me and tried to talk with me. they all likely had problem with their potent, and poisoning my life with their spying eyes. got up at 7:17am and soon arrived office.

25/1/2010

a full work load of monday.^last night heard preach in local church again. the preach talk about traps, strange dream&phenomena, i quite informed of my situation. a beautiful girl lingered there after the preach, let me doubting where is my girl zhou. buzzed baby son after returned dorm about my love to him. before went to church, tried to contact my Guangdong girl sally. bought food from a nearby grocery shop named black kid sister(黑妹), enjoyed near 9pm. woke up this morning aroud 7am. went to office around 8a. in office posting tweets. correct QRRS allowance for baby's kindergarten fee, with which first time the departmental clerk missed a month of that. read most time&hunting for resources to download. its a brilliant morning but sunshine turns weak at noon. i busy with clean irrelavant codes in my gmail's html signature. redesign family html signature in bookmarklet&backup, since noon. then baby's mom came over to fetch the returned allowance as we discussed. then sorted udisk, reformat&data migration, till 7pm finished, after many partitions dividing efforts failed. dined with beef pies&mutton soup. singing God name for the earlier descending of my girl in my life with new marriage.

To my girl zhou: about our new life.

23/1/2010

To my girl zhou: about our new life.^in the after dinner roam, my heart weightened by girl's anxious about how to support my new life with the lifestyle we wished. God let me more cherished what my girl zhou bring to me, from a clean hand, forever. and to relieve my girl's burden of support my new life, God has it: Masheng, ur money, as well as Japan's finiancial power, is the only money on the world that's growing with lives. help my girl zhou to arrange our new life, including the new house, that we deserve under God's shine, decorate it with simple, romantic, and secure. rid us all evil of espionage. always lighten my girl with Holy spirit, rather anxious about so called reality problems. i will since my being under God's shine many years ago choose live in Spirit. my dearest girl zhou, pl lend me ur hands, let's step into our new life Heaven grants. u will be the finiancer of China Corporate, world will sees China's prosperous, but never leave lightning Spirit even in split of second; never let money win ur sight, which would never happen on u, my dearest. Tonight the bottomless sky has a half moon, the forever family friend of Ming dynasty. let's pray its clear and clean glows hallow our Royal of China. pure and plenty of China and its Royal.

Sun rerises as normal, but heart never sinks.

last night i treated my baby son and his mom as scheduled, after waiting my girl zhou in vain. she had left my sight for about more than 4 days, in which i sought wilderly. my heart turns hard upon her evading me, my memory fixed on the prime time when she strided in her white short coat and waving so loveable long legs. my girl zhou fiddles me with her hide-and-see, each time when i crying for pains in my heart in missing her, she winked like mirage in seconds just throw me more into her influence, and then dead silence. last night i waited to greet her in front of QRRS HQ as usual, then baby's mom buzzed in. we arranged meeting up under my office, when i waiting in chill on the place she once bought icecream with her colleague and we first eyes' contacted, she in her white coat which inspired me so much, arranged 2 men and a female walked arms in arms just to show me her tricky and naughty. after i gathered with baby son and his mom, after chilled outside for more than a quarter&trembled on the bus stop, the restaurant was full of customers. so i suggested going to my dorm to rest some time. baby there enjoyed a game i just got from web. when we returned to the restaurant, a tall girl with cordial face looked straight into us. she was palled with 2 men and a female. i felt she must has a link with my girl zhou, but i felt my girl should more gifted than her. so i joined the war with the half raw lamb steak at once, with small knife, chopsticks and my own teeth.

after dinner, i hold baby son into the KFC Tiedong franchise, where a cop in uniform lingered there but don't eat but all time roaming, and also peeked when baby son played game on my notebook. when we dined in the restaurant serves fried mutton, a neighbor dog, a mature but young beast tentatively poked baby's head when baby don't eat and let by his mom to change to outer chair and played on the chair. baby son puzzled, but informed by the adversity. i at once told baby that's a dog, and life time task to kill dog, ie, cop, mafia, bureaucracy, for our family in title of zhu. i told baby the dog already dead, and God knows when its corpse disappear on the earth that belongs to us, in God's shine. in daily tweet of yesterday, i assigned the killing to Masheng, to her special force squad to accomplish the slaughter. nothing can lay a touch upon my Royal, the Royal of China as well as God's.

today its the second bright day since the shallow snow last weekends. blood had already spilt over the drought land over-crowded with ants and mice. God, i never enjoy killing except glory drives it aimlessly. killing in ur name is just a cake, funny but not meaningful. the only bright in my heart is my girls, my beloved. in every scent i can sniff, i track the veil and vein from my Queens in my Royal. God, let ur bright forever cover me, cover my heart fully.

below is my daily tweets in this transitinal life:

20/1/2010

dined with baby son&his mom.^last night dined with baby son. a dog behind him tentatively poked baby's head when baby playing on his chair. kill the dog at once&told baby the death. Masheng, let ur special action squad do it, slaughter the dog insulting at once. got up lately after 8am. its again a bright day in brilliant sunshine. posted recent photos.

19/1/2010

dreamed of lunar new year.^dreamed of celebrating lunar new year with my girl, almost sexed but hold for my girl zhou as God lets. Its snowing in dawn, likely since last night but don't cover ground thick.

18/1/2010

busy day with baby's sites. missing my girl zhou again.^got up around 7am&went to office among crowd of QRRSers. fine tuned baby's profile. my girl don't appear in noon break. claimed&fine tuned baby's homepage on google sites in afternoon. gave up till near 5pm. went to receive my girl zhou, but again can't find her. treated myself with beaf pies&mutton soup in a restaurant near office after the monday. all night in dorm reviewing my love with my girl zhou.

17/1/2010

just refined my old blog at 163.com (http://benzillar.blog.163.com ) when last night God recalled it in front. got additional one for the predecided (http://bentchu.blog.163.com ). all done in God's shine.
Masheng, i hope i will marry my girl zhou before the lunar lantern Day. hope u can settle our trip to my hometown, where my folks will witness the glory of my dad and his son. pl join me sooner, as u know.
idle in the morning. launched at office to refined baby's sites, domain setup, Google apps setup, etc. finished after 5pm, then visit the local church&listening the preach. talked to the clerk after it over&expressed thanks. met a girl likely my girl zhou but with hairs reshaped. returned dorm baby let her mom buzzed in. its just so attending God shown. niece also tried to contact me to borrow money for her professional license, but later gave up.

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for picasaweb blocked in China mainland, here parts of the photos hosted domestic.

proud dad and concentrated son.

baby son, warrenzh, whose domain at http://warozhu.com , posed with pride, in my dorm waiting to dine out.

saint moment with white snow and blazing sunshine.

benzrad's daily tweets suppliements.

17/1/2010

just refined my old blog at 163.com (http://benzillar.blog.163.com ) when last night God recalled it in front. got additional one for the predecided (http://bentchu.blog.163.com ). all done in God's shine.

Masheng, i hope i will marry my girl zhou before the lunar lantern Day. hope u can settle our trip to my hometown, where my folks will witness the glory of my dad and his son. pl just me sooner, as u know.

12/1/2010

a dark night before a bright morning.^last night restlessly. surfed lately on cellphone. stranger haunted in the corridor. broken dreams. fell into sleep lately. woke up near 8am, went to office at once, and finally secured my 2 sim cards with new password after got the default password from the telcom's booth, which out of service for several times due networks failure. its again a bright day. roamed most time in morning, later talk to department director about my life, shown him family album. later he lets me stay in office in afternoon for crew of the information department of QRRS will install Internet access for me. praying God&sing his glory, sing for my ancestor who so attending my call for a well working environment in transit life. my girl zhou likely stayed in office like me, so i don't  see her in rush crowd of QRRS. read awhile ebook, an biography of an prominant Germany philosophist, while waiting QRRS crews come over to install my Internet access.  but they missing, to upset my good will&rent finding. till near 3pm&after the facing evil returned to office, when i left to computer market to buy baby son mouse pad he asked. also bought his mom a keyboard cover she wants. on the bus met a girl with clear eyes. for full of joy, dined just after 4pm&went to greet my girl zhou. shot some photos in the open space in front of QRRS. stood firm as let till the ring of work over. my girl closer to me, but an evil gay tried to mud around. so i walked slow in single, picked up till near my office. the evil again tried to laid dirts, so my girl gave up teaming&left to the road toward the city center. i also walked to dorm, after likely my girl zhou noticed my following. God, what a tender heart my proud fiancee, my girl zhou has, what a blessing my new marriage brings me the most wonderful and beautiful a living soul can be! let me forever thanks for the cares&grants my girl zhou put on me, even before she accept me formally or  publicly. reviewed my love in dorm. around 6:30pm, haunted outside again for my girl zhou, who also under my second wife, my Japanese Princese, Masheng, my Sun, my God's care. 

11/1/2010

promising day, with delayed gospel.^last night went to sleep lately, again tried googling my web id via my cellphon's wap. this morning woke up just after 7am, with an inner open eyes for gathering with my girl zhou. washed head after got up. it would be another great day, with brilliant sunshine. went to office after 7:30am, check e-bible for last night preach i heard. roamed in office, waiting corporate lan, with which the department dirctor said had applied&in process, wired. greet my girl, who today wears a grey fur-alike coat, and likely in low mood when she returned to QRRS, covers her head with the cap on the coat. the dogs in office closely peeked me, twice when i salute my girl zhou passing by my office. i later doubting sweat or bitter our love is lasting today. God lets me not to suffer but enjoy the delayed deep hog&breath into each other between my girl zhou&me. evil of gays in the offices&around unfold themselves in front of me, God lets me informed. returned to dorm after 3pm, dozed at once on bed for half of an hour. dined earlier to greet my girl zhou. but she with her colleague evaded me tentatively. after i followed her again, she stopped in the display panels of the QRRS labor union, likely waiting me to chat her. i stood firm, then my girl zhou sheered backward to QRRS, i pray for God, then moved ahead continuingly without companion. my girl zhou picked the other side of the road my first time followed her, we likely both knew we cared each other on the different side of one road leading to the suburb of Qiqihar. in dorm reviewed my love, praying for less pains. then join the nearby Christian church, but on week day they don't preach, but just God believers' praying there. but i met the clerk last night preached, chatted with him&another woman cadre about my faith. returned to dorm review my love with my girl zhou, talk with her in heart. roamed outside again in aim to seek my cared lover. admired restaurant lingers on the way, so join one to dine again for warmth of gathering&dinner those group seekers shown, esp common among QRRSers. God, i never lose confidence that u r leading my girl zhou, who is just rightly tender&attending, as much virtue as i admire, to my arms. i never lose confidence that my girl trusts me and loves me. i hope we soon forged into one, one family with one soul like the bible grants.

10/1/2010

a great non-break day for hope ahead.^last night buzzed hometown about my departing from baby's mother's house, and my new marriage in view. this morning full of mixing desire for new life with my girl zhou let me woke up early, with burning craving for family life. went to office update sites' sidebar to include family most namespaces as scheduled since 8am to 2:30pm, without break or lunch. all done, and such a relief. treat myself with pies&meat in a restaurant on way to dorm. also posted a blog entry with recent photos to celebrating the new year of 2010, which carries so many wishlist of mine on new life with my girl zhou. Its all time a bright day, even when i busy in office i sheltered the sunshine when it bother my work on my dimmer notebook screen. can't wait for gathering with my girl zhou in every chance. roamed after dinner, join the nearby Christian church, first time listened a preach&greatly enchanted. reviewed my love in my girl zhou, felt touched&praying God instill brave&glory in us. missing my girl very much. 

pray in hard. songing in&last.

14/1/2010

bright day.^last night slept in time around 9:20pm, after prepared a blog entry enhenced by Holy message 3 times. woke up before 6am&got up before 7am, went to office at once. posted the blog entry first, then read within my greader. Its again a bright day. read after posted daily tweet. my girl zhou don't appear in QRRS noon break. the department summoned to collect fund for charity, i submit 40rmb but don't attend the meeting. the facing dog also mimic me, stayed in office to espionage me&shit around. when i again spit to the floor, the gay barked upon me. i retorted for the sake of my family, as God lets. soon the monitor returned&mopped the floor. also at noon fine tuned baby's blog&wiki, ie. url remapping, sidebar, etc. China surveillance since then blocked my gtalk&google reader. the department director also visit the office&watched my operation on baby's google blog custom domain redirection. returned to dorm, went to receive my girl zhou in front of QRRS HQ directly after dinner after 4pm. there r 3 men playing kites there. my girl didn't appear all time. 2 girls look like her&i tried to follow, but i felt more likely my girl evading me this moment. returned dorm right 6pm, and when i launched logging today, the nearby senior middle school break for dinner. God promised me its an auspicious day. roamed out at 6:30pm, found several QRRSers returning to its HQ, so likely some departments, including my girl zhou's, overclocked in this lunar year end for audit or other financial reason. bought myself food, partially in memory of my Guangdong girl Feng, and enjoyed in dorm. re-read my last post wrote in Holy message last night on my cell's wap access, roamed out again when body response told me my girl missing me, reach QRRS front gate then returned to dorm, where when i picked to log, the nearby students finished their day work&flocking to their home. its all so bright! so vivid and living and meaningful! my girl zhou, pl relax urself if u tired, pl drink when u thirst. i will dream tonight in ur arms. the stars scatters in the moonless sky attending our breath together in sweet.i tasted ur sweats u scattered daytime, and smell ur body perfume in floral garden we own in mid night Heaven. i love u so, my dearest girl, Queen of China, of my Royal. seas pacified when u on dream land, mountains arrest wind wolfing like a shallow of dripping leave from moon under ur closed eyelids. bye, my dearest, bye from this lonely night we r separated temporary by God's red wire. bye and sweet in ur heart, bye and fresh when dawn light wakes up. bye for now for the blessed, bye for God's love among us. bye, i love u, my angel, my heart&soul.

love of father, love of son, love of girl.

sad dawn dream.got wired via QRRS.^in dawn dreamed of baby less happy with my living my new life, a bit part from him. God, never let me live apart from my baby son, God of Universe, lives me with live source from him within me, live us together forever in one. live us the hardest likes diamond in Trinity. got up at 7:33am, after wondered on bed in early wakeup. arrived office around 8am, QRRS' lan wire already installed, but ip await granting Internet access. visit the director&express obligation. read ebook of Germany philosophist Heidegger while waiting for Internet. got wired to Internet finally aroud 9:45am, now its my works to compliment delayed posts in these days waiting for new working environment in my QRRS office after got assurance from the high rank of QRRS. greet my girl zhou in noon break as usual but with especial new start, she also first time leaps when she passing my office on way returning to QRRS. nothing can express my thanks and being beloved from my girl zhou's envoy. i admire her sooooo much. surfed all time in office, fine tuned my 163 profile&homepage there. clear half of feeds that unread within my google reader. the dispisable China authority hacked google's server farm in Shanghai office&spying their patanted codes, threaten all Chinese google admirers now that google considering postphone their operation in China for evil in China mainland is against their corporate moral. shits! when gone the dirty and really freaky China authority? the numberable darks on the earth, likes shits that humiliate global civilization? yes, its my family's duty to overturn the dark and evil on the scarry land of China. its me and my family, Royal of China, to overtune the sick and ill mind of China as a periphery of my grand ancestor sice Ming Dynasty. left office on time at 3pm. roamed in dorm talking to my girl zhou, who want me picking her indifference her pose. dined on time at 4pm&went to receive my girl at once. its an early spring, as i was reminded when i jog in front of the QRRS headquarter, where hosts quite some evil eyes, likely including high ranks. there is no respct among the elder on China mainland, the dirty porter brewing any fresh into rotten&foul, except my God, my passed dad, the Founder of coming Ming dynasty lasts 1109 years. when its time for QRRSers leaving for home, a girl in white with similiar figure as my girl zhou attracted my sight for quite some time, let me doubting if my girl changed her coat mid way in afternoon and picked the other way as the alien girl chose. but i waited till the radio of QRRS broadcasting songs, of which the first one is a male singer sings misery of love, after finished news of QRRS, i was touched immediately&prepared missing my girl in the so likes unlucky dusk, but then my girl zhou, tearsbreakingly&weepswipingly beaming appeared, among her male colleagues. i stood till her was almost packed by those male QRRSer into a car, and haunted over and around till sure she left the mini-plaza of QRRS front gate by car. on the way in dark lamps, i murmured in heart, my dear, i never closer to u than this moment, for God let me show my wines of persistence, God shown me how u attending me, attending my appeal for u. on half way i originally tend to choose the half way i route between office&dorm, but God let me straight to the cross way and look out if my girl she left the car and drop me there herself alone first time. in office review the scene when i waiting for my girl in front of the QRRS HQ, reviewed my love with my girl zhou. haunted out on 6:30pm as Masheng lets, visiting the cross way my girl can appear. bought myself canned fruits, susage&wine on way to dorm. enjoyed the food&buzzed baby son to suggest them to him. he gladly allow me to buy him the food in next gathering. its so nice a day. i missing my girl so much! in this lonely night and this lonely room. God, don't i live in arms of my bride now? live now in my girl's dream tonight? don't i tear my beloved all night in every silent and single moment? don't i own the whole world of the continent thats beautiful? don't i m ur only son among the human? don't i talk with u in last night dream in ur Heaven, my hometown? don't i live with u, my dearest son, my grand passed dad, all u in one, as my own? God, don't u touched by my thanks with wilder joys in ur the Holy? don't u assure me and my followers mirage exactly in my arms? don't u laid bliss on every scent of my beloved girls, esp. my girl zhou's pillar? God, don't u picked the brightest star and decorated my girls' hairs with its starry? God, let me cry for ur love, cry for being in ur love, cry for the Heaven i saw and felt so far in the love of and with my girl zhou.

New year on new horizon.bleeding with hope and missing.

So many hopes of family and new family upon the new year of 2010. i will see my new marriage in the beginning of 2010, while baby son got his first International domain, warozhu.com, which now running with a simple but informative homepage based on my domain, be21zh.org. its all bright days, or white days in snowing, recently. i talk with my second wife, my Sun, from Janpanese Royal, in every pulse of coherent, while my forging blood bound with my girl zhou, for whom i searched on the web so long, and our new family turning clearer and sounding. new year of 2010, belongs to the Holy, belongs to the Royal of China in my title.

today again a new bright day, with so many hopes and missings loaded me bleeding. i look into the sunshine, sea's bubble wade and wax in my heart. i see my girl in praying for me, including my first wife, girl Lü, and the Taiwan girl, who will has my 3rd son, and girl Jiangyue. life with so many promises, from the Heaven, form God the Holy. life in moulding the new China and east Asia.
all of all, girls, come, come and join me, with the morning sunshine on her hairtop, with Heaven dews on ur lid, come, and come into new horizon under our steps. the world never more promising than we see it, than we say it.

below is my daily tweets in this transitinal life:

9/1/2010

full of joy&hope.^last night busy in office sorting family sites in sidebar against China surveillance frequent blocking my logos on different hosts. slept lately after 10pm, for memory of such a great day. dreamed a school girl succeeded in college entrance exam with her firends. dreamed managed a restaurant in US&in China. dreamed of coming love even under cops' espionage. got up after 8am, and its a blazing bright morning again, with so many lucky fortunes ahead. roamed outside in the aim to meet my girl zhou. sms baby's mom who in last night's chat in low not to swing with rumors of me from dogs'. lunched outside with meat&pies. roamed again in bright sunshine, met a girl in her 16 years old or so with brilliant figure. missing my girl zhou very much. sorted family forum hosted on GAE in dorm, correcting titles&links, also in songs of Daolang, a western Chinese singer. some road cleaners, likely employed from suburb residents, made noise just under my window, while i recharged my cellphone. roamed outside after it finished, picked office to check manual to modify cell's lock key. really missing my girl zhou.

8/1/2010

my girl bullied me last night, but its a new gifting day today.^last night lingered in office surfing till 7pm, to avoid the bully my girl zhou exerts on me. the night on bed restlessly, sexual desire turns strong in dawn, woke up first time before 7am. waited in dorm till 8am. refined sites' images in office. dog in office turned agile&foamed of babbles, likely espionaged last night my girl zhou refusing me by picked a man's bike&left before i trying but unable to reach her. the another dog, the monitor, tentatively moved the empty chair to his close territory, trying to ban my using his corporate lan wire. but after all, its a bright morning&God's brilliant gift for me just to unveil. sorted recent photos&prepared upload. greeting my girl zhou in her colleagues' companion. she is just too bright in her white short coat, strides with her long legs. greet her again when she return to QRRS, too perfect to own her as God Holy shines me. felt constrained upon myself yearning for her, for i love her so much&need her in my arms so cravingly and so meanslessly, but after all again, my new marriage with her will commences soon in the beginning of 2010.

7/1/2010

a blessing day, with magpies croak over me.^finally baby's site, warozhu.com, running, and my site, be21zh.org, updated, with the help from Taiwan friend. also got the forum of the 2 domains working&refined, after so many errs in source code&blocking from China surveillance. its really a hopeful day, but missing my girl zhou in rush time of work over. i worked lately but managed in position in time to wait for my girl, a girl with the same coat&height mistakened me&likely my girl behind her passed when i retreat to roaming. bought a new basin, for the old one broken last night. fine tuned my cellphone. snowing night makes it a time to pray for saint love. God, kill dirts&evil rumors&loads of pressure around/on my girl zhou, let my love with my girl zhou grows&melting into peaceful&colorful&lasting full joys of family, let my girl in my arms&pulse together.
help baby's granny fetching coupon from QRRS just after got up, for she lost the coupon first time trying to fetch. on the way some magpies croak over me. bought myself tea, a long time wanting, and taste it at once in office. the world all brightly white in last night's snow. read awhile in office. dogs there espionaged closely. the monitor long time in the morning absent, but just after i connected to web with his wire, he appeared&complained about unabled to connect at once as usual, likely informed by the gay on facing desk, trying to find a rent. the facing dog gamed online all time&bet death to challenge me. so call to the high rank in QRRS, about my Internet need&invited him to celebrate my new marriage. he let me dwell more with my girl to know each other better. missing my girl zhou in rush time of noon break. read newspaper to kill time while waiting the director to settle my corporate lan access, among the facing dog's heavy dirts. returned to dorms around 3pm, listening radio. dinned earlier to wait my girl zhou. she walked with her colleagues while i trying to follow her. first time closer to watch her, whose eyes clear&legs long&fit. later she went alone&look back to me, so i tried again to follow her, but she took a man's bike left. when i closely follow her, i felt so rich to own her. God, u never misleading me, i straightly ask u for my girl zhou i persued so long, i directly ask u leading me into my new life with my girl zhou, in the most romantic house in the world we will nest&make love that's saint&breathtaking. God, i m a determined mind, and never losing or dwelling in burning of shame any time any place, for my glory of Royal of China, exactly ur glory on the earth.

6/1/2010

a hopeful day.^last night met my girl zhou in QRRS rush time, follow her till cross road, peaceful&hopeful. then returned to office to contact Taiwan friend to upload source files to my family domains, ie. baby's warozhu.com and mine be21zh.org. dealt routine stuff. Its snowing all night, so auspicous. sms girl Feng in Guangdong. tried wap access my favorite portals on my new cellphone, went to bed after 10pm. went to office at once getting up. sorted os in office. met my girl zhou under my office where i talking with the department cadre for my missing coupon, tried but can't see clear my girl's face. customized baby&my 163 account with my cellphone authentication. refined forums of family domains. handed in fee for baby's kindergarten. finished updated family 2 domains' hosting via Taiwan friend.

5/1/2010

busy with fix my win7 on acer notebook.^last night met my girl zhou just under my office. the dog in the front office stared me when i waiting, so i shift to another place. my girl tentatively stopped by a icecream vendor aside the road, i picked up&first time closely watched her eyes. its almost our first direct eyes' contact. after she left, baby's mom, emakingir arrived to bring me my medcines. i had visited the hospital but it moved to a new place. so i adopted ema's suggestion several times to make use of medcines at her home. i bought it again from ema, costs me 200rmb as admitted. in dorm contacted my facebook girl who now in her hometown Guangdong, after sms her twice without response. emotional upon re-gaining her message. the dorm's porter, an old woman with her old husband washed in the toilet, the male beast even washed nakedly there when i heard the noise&went to wash clothes. dirts around in QRRS deserves a kill, which descends since last night&shallowly covered the ground this morning. i returned to baby's mom's house first time since my step into my new life, and busy with building bootable udisk, then restored os from backup. migrating data cost me about 3 hours, after last night i found all my works previously done, esp. data syn, all lost. baby was fetched to skate on ice with his first new skateshoes by his mom, who had a half day vacation. returned to office lately after 4pm.

4/1/2010

pc crashed when i copy to udisk. tried all kind of bootable disk but failed. got insult from a doggie gay in neighbor room for my borrow his notebook awhile to fix remission problem with my Taiwan friends who just got me my baby's domain, warozhu.com. killing snow since then.

3/1/2010

bought my first cellphone, &under clothing&showered near baby's mom's home.^last night restlessly, longing sex with my girl zhou. got up lately&heading to office immediately. retouched family sites while the 2 once colleagues staying in office. tried to upload to my domain registaar but failed again. then gathered with baby&his mom in supermarket, bought baby foods he likes, ate in KFC. then i finally first time buying my own cellphone. also bought under clothes&got showered&haircut. tried to remit Taiwan friend who help me getting baby's domain but out of service. Its so nice a day.

2/1/2010

finished logo design for warozhu.com, baby son's first domain.^last night busy with logo design till 10pm. this morning woke up by tractor's engine again. finally retouched the logo, with Chinese slogan. the haunted computer market to buy 8gb udisk, to prepare migrating acer notebook to my usage, while hasee notebook left to baby as he wanted. migrated data between notebook in office from 2pm-8pm. also prepared warren's site, but China surveillance blocked file upload all time. buzzed baby's mom&know the bonus from QRRS likely 7000rmb or so. bought another wine. some porn photos reminds me my girl zhou painfully.

1/1/2010

sound sleep. woke up in vital engine sound of a tractor outside.^last night thought awhile on bed, talking to baby son in heart. woke up around 8am. a porting tractor's healthy engine's pulse accompany reviewing some time on bed. preparing baby's site since then, based on my site of be21zh.org, design warozhu's logo. then join baby son&his mom at Golden Hans buffet, where i tried to fix acer notebook but all bootalbe udisk failed. great time with baby, let him know his domain. roamed after returned dorm, present 10rmb to a chair-bound man. review the problem with os on acer notebook. design baby's site's logo all time, finished it at 10pm.

31/12/2009

buy baby son his domain, warozhu.com, with help from Taiwan friend.^dreamed of a sportman in family name zhu. his sport is double swords. after his performance, i picked his swords he shot&returned to him. the dorm's door keeper, an old fat woman, behaved evil: last night she with an other woman washed clothes lately from 8pm-9pm, and this morning again did&made noise around 5am in the nearby lavatory of the dorm. such a dirt! busy contacting Taiwan friend to register baby son his first domain, warozhu.com, the second domain of our family. finished the deal till near 2pm. my girl zhou didn't appear in rush time. got several bonus from QRRS, my once&long time employer. busy with setup baby's new domain, as well as google apps in the domain near 5pm. met my girl on the way as usual, but really a surprise for her absence at noon rush time, when i doubting if she don't join office today. she peeked at me but lowered her sight when i contact her eyes&felt assertive. as a punishment she shorten the way with which i can follow or company her, but directly walked to the other way, separat me with a main&busy road of the city's entrance. hard to compel the high mood, but i managed to buzz baby&his mom till 7pm as usual, told them the bonus, gift for baby(but keep it a secret till tomorrow's gathering), got timetable of our dining out in Golden Hans buffet where we haunted last month&greatly enjoyed. roamed outside. tried to contact a homeless old man sheltered in a harmful corner near a electric station outside of the dorm area, but can't find him outside of his locked fence. its my second time trying to help him with some money but failed. the full moon tonight from my ancestor has the best wish upon me&my Royal in new year of 2010. prepared baby's site after settled in dorm.

30/12/2009

dreamed of Nankai alumni.^last night slept in peace&sound. dreamed played soccor in Nankai Univ with schoolmates, like Sunbo, wangbin, wenxiong, etc. later all about books&magic. care my girl zhou. live long to see through. post recent tweets in an b og entry to my blogs, including domestic blogs. finally touched my forums, including one at http://zh.be21zh.org, ie. correct google analystics&friends connect codes correspondingly. greet my girl zhou, who this time alone when leaving QRRS, while talking with 2 male QRRSers when route to QRRS. the monitor in office chat with me about my marrital statues&try to persuade me to retired now&return to my hometown. God sees how rubbish a man can be. read ebook on cyberwar. peaceful light in my life now&to come. girl zhou, hold me right now, right this auspicious moment God grants. roamed in dorm thinking family domain. met my girl zhou first time face to face, even obscure in street light, in peace. the corridor of dorm lights all 3 bulbs to welcome me&i do felt blessed. review my love in my girl zhou, then continued planning baby son's domain, all time in music.

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benzrad, me, with baby son, warren zhu, in Qiqihar Golden Hans buffet.

baby son, warrenzh, whose domain at http://warozhu.com , dining in KFC Fu-mart franchise.

baby son, warrenzh, on skating ice ground with his first new skateshoes.